I love God more than ever

i must glorify His name again..

tonight i had a very bad stomache, for no apparent reason. suddenly i was moving from my bed, to my sofa, to the floor and groaning and lying down. it was so painful i couldnt pray. i couldnt even talk.

i tried to go to the toilet to relieve myself, thinking it  might be food poisoning, but it did nt help.

my mom saw me and was so worried. she immediately knelt beside me to pray for me. she laid her hand and kept calling upon the name of Jesus. she prayed and prayed. and it must have been the voice of God, becos she said she wanted to call her friend to help me pray over the phone.

you know what i said? i said "dun wan". how faithless i was! thank God my mom went on to call her friend.

they prayed and at the mention of the blood of Jesus, the enemy FLED! but not without the enemy's persistency to torment me and to prevent me from praying.

this tells us something, satan is persistent. and he will destroy you if you give in to him.

the pain was suddenly gone, at the mention of THE BLOOD OF JESUS.

the enemy literally fled!

Ephesians 2:13
But now in Christ Jesus you who once were far away have been brought near through the blood of Christ.

my mom was so touched, she cried...!

she adored Jesus on the spot, uncaring of howi will look at her.

and she said "ever since i started MASTERLIFE, i had been studying You Lord, and everytime i prayed with faith, You answer me, and there have been testimonies after testimonies. now im truly convinced You are a living God and a God who hears my prayers. i will worship You, i will love You, and thousands will know u and worship You!"

these are her literal words!

and then my sister came back!

and i guessed she saw what was happening.

looking back 4 months ago, i realised i planted A SEED.

a simple prayer almost every night which goes like this : Lord i ask of You to strengthen my mom's faith. use her mightily in this family. give her added passion to know You

and now, God has caused my seed prayer to grow, much more abundantly than i ever thought it will be!

so people! keep on praying. the seed WILL GROW! if u have faith as small as a mustard seed, God can use you still!

how good is our God? no words can express my gratitude.

He shed His blood, to nullify and cancel satan's power, so that we might be His forever.

His blood still reminds satan of the work He did on the cross at Calvary.

booking in today. well well, mixed feelings.

on one hand, i really hope that army could be an 8 to 5pm kinda job, so that i can spend more time with my family and friends. on the other hand, i am getting used to my bed in my bunk, my bunkmates, and the tough training.

on one hand, i feel like i have been missing out a lot among my close friends in church, on the other hand, i still do have them and other loving church friends who will come up and care for me, and seeing my cell group members and friends having a great time around in church, my joy overflows in the Lord.

on one hand, i feel that i can be used by God in the army, yes, in terms of sharing the Gospel, revealing my testimony, and being a good ambassador of Christ. yet on the other hand, i feel i can do alot too, if i could meet up my dear cell leaders in the weekdays to pray and plan for cell group, to groom them, to teach them, to guide them, to be a support for them.

so now i stand, in the line, trying to come to terms sometimes, this phase that i am going through.

some nights, i lie on my hard bunk bed, i would cry. sometimes its because i miss my mom. sometimes its my mom calling and hearing her caring voice, and telling me that God is with me. sometimes its the thought of having to manage an independent life which i never really experienced before (which i know its for my good). sometimes, its the thought of not being able to be in the fellowship of my close friends during the weekdays. sometimes, its the situation that i am in - having to insulate myself among my friends. sometimes, there are other reasons too.

some days, i thank God joyfully. because He brings me through all the tough training with His wisdom and strength.

i thank God sometimes for really caring bunk mates, who will give me more food (not that they cannot finish but cos they know i eat ALOT), who will help me do stuff when i am really tired, who will joke with me to make my army days less torturing. 

i thank God too that i know that tough training will mould my character, and greatly aid in my service in church.

i thank God that i can even go to mission trip during the block leave.

i have got to pass this examination. no one gets promoted in life without examination. how else will you know that you have truly endured unless you go through the toughest moments in life? how else will you know that you are patient in the fruit of the Spirit unless you are being put through hair-tugging experiences?

i will pass this examination, giving glory back to Christ, not to myself. 

dear brothers and sisters in Christ, 

i never knew i would be a Christian, much less a leader.

when i wasn't a christian, i had christian friends and relatives beside me.

deep inside my heart then, i always wanted to know why the christians i saw were always so happy, joyous and caring.

but on the surface, i put up a strong and stubborn front. whenever my cousin brought me to conferences or her church, i would either reject her in her face or go and give her an attitude.

you could say i was testing the christians. to see if their patience will end there and then. and if they did forget about me and stop inviting me to church, i would have proven myself right - the christians do not care, just like the rest of the people.

thankfully, my cousins and my friends perservere. conference after conference, service after service, cell groups after cell groups, and finally at my cousin's church camp, i received Christ. not only did they perservere, they tried to relate to me, and make me feel comfortable.

the way i came to know Christ and after which my life changed tremendously has impacted me and taught me an important lesson - that is being patient and loving the non-believers who come into our church, thus causing them to start to wonder and to an extent have a positive "envy" towards the LOVE we have.

many a times, they are also looking for an answer. and if we give them half baked love and care, we are no different from the world they live in. and if they see there is no difference between christians and the world, would you think they would stay and receive salvation?

only CHRIST's love in us can melt away their stubborn hearts.

even as so many non-believers who are Muslims, Buddhists, Taoists, Hindus etc are coming in in search of the Truth, let us be patient with them. let us relate to them. let US GO BEYOND our comfort zone. and then let those non-believers who come in start to WONDER about the Love and YEARN for what we have too. 

let us also most importantly, remember that once we were also from the filth of the world, only to picked up by our Saviour again.