April 2nd, 2006
For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain.
i chatted with my brother on MSN. he is in China now. do pray for his safety, anyone who sees this.
but we had a nice chat.
God suddenly prompted me to ask my brother this question: if we do not have anyone or anything we can die for in our lives, do you think that much of the meaning of life has been lost?
and he answered me: yes.
how true is this verse :
For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain.
so i started telling my brother that dying in Christianity is about dying to self, and certain desires, and even ultimately to die as a martyr for Jesus Christ.
and then I THINK (im not sure), that my bro got an idea that Christian martyrs are like those "muslim martyrs", where we go around bombing and killing, and blowing ourselves up.
so i explained to him that Christian martyrs are defensive. not offensive. as in that i will nto deny Jesus Christ even to death.
then i went on to talk about Christianity teaching God directly reaching out to humankind, in the manifestation of Jesus Christ, and that no other religion teaches that.
and he went on to tell me that guanying ma and monkey "god" has directly reached out to humankind too, by answering prayers.
i was like ..........er......but when i wanted to explain about guanying ma and monkey god being legends and not historically sound contrary to the life of Jesus Christ, he said he had to go off. so well, it ended.
For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain.
oh Jesus Jesus, how beautiful it is, and how privileged it is, that i am able to die for Your glory and to die in Your death, that every morning, i would wake up and be able to die to my evil desires, my selfish wants, that i would carry my cross and die to myself.
that by dying Lord, i know then i am worthy to be called Your disciple. and Lord, people might be dying for the wrong cause, and the wrong people, and the wrong things, but Lord i know that i'm dying for You, because You as Lord, died for me first.
that is a direct connection to my very heart and soul. truly to what me and my brother have agreed upon that life will lose much of its meaning if we do not have anything or anyone we can die for, that dying in You, is truly a worthy cause.
Oh Jesus, that even if one day you call me to death for the defence of Your Gospel, i would do that, in a way that i would NEVER deny my faith and Your name that saves.
because i would die for Truth.
i'm bent on being a conqueror of Christ,a marathon runner for the Prize,a youth pursuing holiness N virtues,a kingdom advancer for His Gospel, a Cross bearer of my First Love, in all things, and all circumstances, that i might exalt and glorify The Name of The God of all things in this life of mine, saved from the pits of Sheol.
Sylvester Lim
yes Lord, i will fix my eyes on the Cross that You died on, and which that You overcame
any others i might have missed out due to me carelessness