I love God more than ever

today today...went sentosa...
rained...and complained...and thought that we will not be enjoying the whole trip
but God proved me and my frens wrong...
God sent rain to let us see the beauty of it...to see the crystal clear water seeping through the fine sand grains...forming puddles and puddles of collected water on the beach...

it was gorgoeus...the works of God...

ken bro...yes i am waiting for 19th...don't disappoint me...hahaha!

"in that day, God will wipe away every tear, every sorrow and pain..."

"You could give mw wings to fly"
"and catch me if i fall"
"how could i ask for more?"
"Your love is the greatest gift of all"
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Huat, WenJun, WeiWei, Xuanwen, Wanxin and WeiQiang came to my house! Made sure WenJun & Huat studied...

My mom asked "who was that guai boy who was studying at the table?" It was Huat! hahaha...DUH...

Recorded lotsa silly stuff on Prisc's Camera...

On the way while sending WeiWei home, we had lotsa fun...running around like mad kids...chasing each other...laughing like no one's there...haha...really love all of your company...dearie friends...

Huat & i very bad...went to torment a couple and gave them unrest... we pretended to be like them...and OooOo.."so sweet" haha...that was lame...real lamez...

After which we went home in that dark dak trail againz...praying as we walked...Thank God for the Moonlight...love ya Jesus...

Proverbs7:2 "Keep my commands and you will live, guard my teachings as the apple of your eye"

"as i fly higher,the conditions will no longer be for me,yes, my breathing wil cease..but i will finally rise as a victorious child of God."
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"pang seh" all my church frens to meet my buddy ken. feel so bad.
haha!

thrashed U in King Of Fighters! haha!

Ken, your friend Jasper was so cool...she rocks totally man! Yea..her colleague was so childish and dumb...ok when i have the money...we will go Monsoon let her cut our hair...keke...

Love is sometimes so hard to understand, too deep to grasp, and too slippery to have a foothold...Love for God, Love for dear friends, Love for couples, Love for family...

"The star seems to be crashing into the sea...yet it would be better off...for the star will not set the land in flames..."

"The heart longs to return to its fallen origins...to its past...to its wild dreams...at least then...it would not have to leave me..."

Ken...thanks for ya quality time and letting me thrash you in KOF...haha!

Jesus i still cannot totally fathom the love You have shown for us...i guess i never can... Jesus...let me make You smile daily...
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Happy Mother's day to my Mom...though she can't see this...but i send her a sms!

She went to my cousin's church to have a dinner...really pray that she will accept Jesus Christ the Son of God!

did a nice nice design for her...its below!

hmm...had kinda lousy day...guess it was the medicine...i sense the spirit of rejection too...at church...like WenJun...

"A smile to cover the sorrows...Silence to cover the unsatisfaction..."

"If only the story had continued...it did not...but it started a new chapter..."

"No one judges me...for God alone judges me..."
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"the problem is not whether love exists...it is whether it is felt..."

"we are still made of flesh...we do not just learn to know...we yearn to feel too..."

A Love Poem
by Silvestre Lim

Hundreds of miles away
it would go
The heart
Longs to forsake
Its restrained body
Nothing stops it
From reaching to the Other
The heart
Grows wings and leaves

But alas!
Without eyes
It cannot see nothing
Nor can it see
The Other
Now it longs to return
To its fallen Origin (derelict)
If only
during its treacherous peregrination
Someone
Would give sight
Then it will still
Be in one piece

A simple day...

Struggled yesterday...Jesus provided a way out for me...while i picked up to read the Love Letter from God...

Went to Campus Crusade bookstore at Bendemeer Road

Lotsa books and information about God...was flabbergasted about the passion and the immense search for the understanding of God which is a result of...i guess...a world of angst...

"The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom..."

My Saviour...help me in my foolish ways...

"when the oceans rise and thunders roar...i will soar with You above the storm...Father, You are King over the floods...i will be still, know You are God..."
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Disgusted and sickened by the pattern of this word...i am so relieved i got out of it and have set myself upon the new order of life...

Beautiful weather today...a typical summer day...swam or more like fooling around in the waters of Jurong East complex with WeiQiang and Kenni...

i just love the free movement of my body in the nice cool water...

And sheesh...got that Faye Wong "look" again...after facing the sun for like 3 hours...in the cool water...

"whenever i am so down...i will love to tell myself this: this world is not as small as you think...the sky is as big and as wide than you can imagined..."


i once told someone who turned one's back on one's Creator this..."Its just like biting the hand that feeds you..."

My own comment made me realise how privileged i was to be in the loving Family of God...away from the decadence of the world...this flirtatious and flamboyant world which only the blind and the foolish will follow...the Father of Lies has indeed got hold of people with his deceptions...
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Channel U and me again!!!

this is the highlight of the day i guess! ahaha...

Hope i get through the auditions...i shall hand the auditions to God... and see what He does...whether i lose or win...its Up to God...Amen!

my face is Ang Ku Kueh red...i tell you all...its kinda tight...haha!

Exodus14:14 The Lord will fight for you...you need only be still...

This verse or rather God brought me out of my disciplinary case in my school...God comforted me...so why should i ever think of leaving Jesus?

The audition went well...really well...

i actually sang Ni Shi Wo Shen Ai De Ren...haha..and acted as a psycho killer...haha...the auditioners laughed...and told me if i get through this round i will be able to go Taiwan...

whoah...Taiwan...

I thank God for everything today...i thank WeiWei...Kenni...and Xuanwen for accompanying me to Channel U...and i thank Channel U for calling me and giving me chances...

had a tiring mission trip meeting...whoah...xcited about it too...i want to serve God more and more...

hahahaha...i am so happy! its just the experience i have over the years with the media...i hope it goes some where...

and then if i become a media practitioner, i will do God's works in any way i can...!

Nissi the Third...i love u...

HUAT THANX AH...for sending that "I AM A CHANNEL U STAR" FOR ME...you better go explain to cell group on saturday!

Tomorrow going lau pa sat...hehheh...

Quarreled with Rong Xiang.

Sian diao...

i told My Saviour about my troubles during service time...all seems well...but i just feel troubled...and mixed up...about my cell group...about my family...about relationships...

i could not handle that kind of baffling thoughts and the little battles in my mind that were waging against each other...


"i lost my balance...because You came forward and sweep me into the waves of love..."
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I could not believe i got through the CHANNEL U auditions and the next moment i would BE on NATIONAL TV again! i was all confident...i was all jumpy...

i was so xcited! and i could not believe that I DID NOT even seek God about my decision making!!

shame on me..-_-''

well...in the end i dropped it and rejected them...COOL HUH...a lot of people will come telling me "you are so FOOLISH...chances come only once in a lifetime!"

but i thought of the consequences of me losing the show...

1. It will be real hard to penetrate into the media scene again if i lose and earn a lousy name like myself...(not everyone is like Willian Hung..)

2. It will bring a bad name to my cell group, my church, my God and myself if i lose...and people wil start to say" see...U REAP WHAT U SOW..."

3. I will lose focus on my work in church...my mission trip...i might even start to stray away from the Heartbeat of Jesus and my beloved cell members...

I Chose where the Peace was...

and after my decision making...i felt peaceful like never b4...God was with me once again..He never fails!

The Next Big Thing is just a small Thing for me! i aim Higher!

Huat...thanx for ur Panda biscuits...haha...Lynn thanx for ur Prayers on saturday...weiwei..thanx for ur encouragements...James...thanx for your enlightenment...God...i thank You for evrything...i love You!

My brother is not home yet..the time is 12.28 am ... more than 24 hours since he went out..

I am dead tired..but i want to wait for him with my mother...my sister? dead asleep...

the feeling of dread...and of fear...i felt it COMing BACK again...

why?

that night...when i received a call from the hospital...i knew...it was time for me and my family to be tested...and to learn and to grow...

it was 3 years ago? i dont really remember...maybe i do not wish to remember...maybe i just want to put it aside...it was a treacherous period, difficult and breatheless... i still miss him...without him... i never really had a dream come true since then...there and then... and now.. there was a gap...

now the i can only hope and believe in God the Father...12.35...not back yet... is my bro having fun outside? erm.. i can only wait... and put my trust and worries to Jesus...

but because God set me free through The Father Heart of God...
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"when the oceans rise, and thunders roar...i will soar with You above the storm..."

My bro is in hospital...badly bruised...but outta danger...and awake...
thank God...

seeing him in this state brings me back the timeline...refreshing images of my father too...

i don't ever want him to follow my father's footsteps...

i can understand my bro's pain...because it hurts me much too...
Someone who has always been independent...
someone who has always been active...
someone who has always did things on his owns and achieved on his own...

to be in this plight...smashes all of his pride...i feel for my bro...and my heart wrenches...

but i can't talk to him...i do not know what to say to him...

today i will be sharing the love of God with him...because...when things become helpless and out of control...when we are being thrown off a cliff into the depths of our lives...we can only depend on God alone...

and hopefully...my bro will realise and live on God's love...and fight on this battle...pray for me all the saints...

my mom accepted Jesus into her heart! God does make use of TROUBLES to mould us and to grow us...

my mom felt the love of God...and she was touched...

thank u Jesus

"if only i had recorded every moment of my life...from a baby...to a delinquent...to a child of God...and all the little details of how God preserved and protected me...then maybe...i would better understand the Great love God has showered upon me..."

sometimes...i wonder...

and i guess some of my friends do wonder too...

"y is my life that rocky...y is my life such a voyage..."

"the earth underneath my feet occasionally rumbles..."

"the wind blows stronger than ever at times..."

"it becomes so bitter and frosty irregularly..."

"the storms are hitting harder this night..."

"some nights...the devil just embraced me...but i resist..."

sometimes...i can hardly breathe...


i sure had and will have a very wobbly life...

but i rejoice in irony too...because troubles are the quintessence of learning...and to grow more in God...

i find this thing very amusing...that is Satanists worshipping Satan...it is crystal clear obvious that Satan which is a fallen angel will never outbeat God..

because a satanist priest once said..."christian prayers can just disrupt and destroy all of the dark side's schemes..."

therefore pray hard all the saints!

souls givers of satan..REPENT! haha!

God here i run another mile for you...because You ran double the distance for me...

Thailand here i come again!!!

Hope to share the Love of God to all the destitute Thais....Heex....

take care Nissi Third...Love u all lots...esp "WenJun Huat Xuanwen Wanxin..." the rest of Nissi Third...Miss u all lots too...

hehx...nvm...

oh ya..bro ken...take care of yourself...too bad food festival is over by the time i come back!! hahaha...-_-''

dear God...pls protect my family!... Love You too